Tuesday, September 29, 2009

So Many Things...

Gratitude is king. Here are some things I am grateful for:

* one stop shopping. i realize that wal-mart is the evil empire, but i can't help myself. i also love target, smith's marketplace, etc.

* playgroup on tuesdays. aah. sweet quiet.

* crisp fall air

* home grown meals. yesterday our dinner was spaghetti squash with sauce and the squash, tomatoes, green peppers and zucchini's all came from our garden.

* a husband with skills and some serious patience for me. so glad he loves me.

* two kids who are my world.

* family and in-law family who just couldn't get any better.

* health.

* work that somehow keeps coming.

* technology (i love technology...)

* good friends

* diet soda (aaaah! i know. got to get over that one)

* functioning cars

* love, life, and the pursuit of happiness

* white noise cds that help keep children asleep

* weight loss so i can start wearing my cute clothes again

* good books

* good movies

* good food

* good company

* baby's laugh

* toddler's who say, "my turn" while they take your mascara and attempt to put it on

* freezer meals

and so on, and so on, and so on...

Saturday, September 19, 2009

We've had a bit of a scary weekend, the family and I.
It all started earlier this week when Hayden seemed to be having some allergy issues (runny/itchy eyes, runny nose, etc.) I gave him Benadryl and that seemed to work for the first couple of days. Wednesday, however, it did not. He had a runny nose all day and a cough was developing. I figured within the next couple of days we would be in the doctor's office for a fabulous nebulizer treatment--since I am out of the albuterol needed for our neb machine at home. Sure enough Thursday morning H. woke up at 6:30 crying and sounding horrible. He was wheezy and his cough was extremely tight. I gave him a puff or two from his inhaler and that seemed to work for about an hour then he tightened right up again. I called the doctor's office and made an appointment for 9:45 and hoped I could hold him off until then. He cried and was barely able to talk and just wanted to be held. Finally I couldn't take it anymore and we went to the doctor's about 30 minutes early. He fell asleep or passed out on the way there (I couldn't tell which) and the nurse rushed us right in to check the O2 levels in his blood and give him a treatment. They like the oxygen level to be at at least 90% and Hayden's fluctuated between 75 and 82% and with the oxygen on his face it was only at 88%.
The doc then came in and told me that we were going to have to take him to Primary Children's Hospital. --You know, somehow saying "Primary's" makes it all sound so much more scary. I mean, if she had just said, "He needs to go to the hospital." I don't think my blood pressure would have shot up nearly as much. --Then she (the doc) said he'd have to go by ambulance because they didn't want him to be off the oxygen for the amount of time it would take for me to drive him. GLORY BE! There it went again! My heart rate just spiked... I called Brent, on the office phone since I'd forgotten my cell phone, and told him the situation. Only what he heard was that Hayden wasn't breathing and they were taking him by ambulance to Primary's. Imagine the thoughts going through his head... what I actually said was that Hayden was having a hard time breathing, still scary but not as life threatening as if he'd already stopped.
Long story short, too late, several things happened at once: B got to the doc's office the same time the ambulance did, and H. set his mind at ease by looking up at him and saying, "Hi, Daddy." B. took Scout to our house where she was handed off to her uncle Luke and H and I rode in the ambulance to the Hospital. You know, ambulance rides look much smoother on TV.
We were in the ER for 3 hours while they gave H several treatments, but he didn't really respond to any of them so they admitted him. I can't tell you how hard it is to watch people put oxygen tubes in your 2 year old's nose and have him cry and say "Take it off, mommy. Take it off." and not be able to do anything but hold him tell him it's ok (especially if you're not sure it is). We were in the hospital until Friday evening when H finally responded to treatments and was able to sleep without the oxygen.
So, now we are home and still have to give him albuterol every 6 hours and prednisone twice a day and he still has a horrible cold (which Scout now also has). We will also have to give him a Flovent puff (inhaler) every day whether he is showing symptoms of an asthma attack or not. Pretty scary stuff, I must say. But some good things did come of it and here they are, listed in no particular order:

* Luke and Megan didn't hesitate one bit when Brent asked them to come get Scout and to keep her indefinitely.
* Julie drove down to the ER to see little H just to make sure he was ok. While she was there she asked H if he would like her to sing him a song about trains to which he politely responded, "that's okay."
* Michelle brought us food and coloring stuff while we were waiting in the ER
* My parents kept Scout over night and brought her up to the Hospital to eat.
* My down the street neighbor and morning walking buddy brought by some food, a toy, and much needed caffeine.
* Hayden said lots of funny things like when the nurse would tap tap tap at the door he would say, "come in!" and he told one of the nurses, "bye, lisa" after she introduced herself.

All in all I am grateful for our families and our neighbors and the people who love us. I hope we don't have to do that again any time soon. AND I hope B doesn't freak out too much when the bills start to arrive, we just finished paying for little Scout after all.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009















we camped for labor day weekend.
the man, the girl and i drove to the grey's river in wyoming and stayed in our trailer. where was boy, you ask? having a grand time with nana and bapa (my parents). there are some of you who may think me a wimp for not taking both kids on this adventure. i just call it, "knowing my limits". truth be told i am not a natural born camper i'm not even an unnatural born camper. i come by that honestly however, i mean, have you met my family? i go for three reasons: 1) my husband loves it 2) i love my husband and 3) if i want to see my husband during this time of year this is where i must go. and so i went, sans the two year old who is the epitome of a busy boy and would have been a source of extra stress in an environment i'm already fairly uncomforable in.
oddly enough, i really had a good time. i slept well and slept in--something i haven't done in an insanely long time. i attribute the sleeping well to my husband's foresight in purchasing a new/used trailer that had heat, running water, and a bathroom. camping is much more endurable under such circumstances. i also was able to spend some quality one on one time with my beautiful little girl who is developing quite the personality. i had such a nice time that when it was time to come home i was almost bummed (though i was excited to see my boy). i do think that next year, though, i would like to that particular trip without children at all. now that would be relaxing.
the pics are fairly self explanatory, but here's a little sum up.
1. scout catching up on her gossip ( i think she's "reading" People magazine). she ate more than she read though and i know this because she eliminated a piece of magazine the next morning. now that's an odd sight in a diaper.
2. our camping buddies, brent's cousin's fam: tavis and amber ervin and co.
3.the hunter
4. mom and girl
5.scout's first night camping, she looks pretty excited, eh?
6. grey's river, wyoming


Saturday, September 12, 2009

happy birthday sarah elizabeth...

Friday, September 11, 2009

just watched 102 minutes that changed america on the history channel. it is amazing that even 8 years later i was glued to the tv much like i was glued to it sept. 11, 2001... i'm glad that the history channel showed this and is dedicating the day to various 9/11 documentaries and such, i think it is too easy to forget the intensity of that day and become complacent. 9/11/2001 was a testament to the paradox of humanity. the evil that created the situation and the good it brought out in so many.
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it's funny, i thought about this post and how i might post my feelings, but i am definitely lacking the words to describe the emotions. --i apologize if this comes off cheap or cheesy or ridiculous, but it's all i've got at this point in time.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

conversations

brent: you know, babe, the more adult women i meet the more grateful i am i married you. (said after having interacted with a rather nutty, albeit nice, neighbor)
*****
Between Hayden and I

me: once upon a time
hayden: there was a little boy
me: and his name was
hayden: momas (thomas)
me: and
hayden: he had lots of friends
me: and there names were
hayden: rafe (james-i know, i know "rafe" sounds nothing like james) and percy and gordon and toby and edward and....
me: one day they all decided to climb the big
hayden: mountain
...and on the story goes...
*****
Between Scout and I
me: scout, it's 4am.
scout: breathy sigh
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